Isaiah 41:13 For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.
Lately, somehow I have not been inspired to write. Not because there’s nothing happening in our lives, but because there’s actually a lot going on. We have been on a journey of travelling, serving and learning.
At the moment there are just too many possibilities, questions and uncertainties regarding what is ahead of us. So I thought, why would I write about the uncertain and not concrete things? If you know me, you would know that I like to have everything under control and sort everything out. I’m a doer! I don’t think too much, I get things done and always make sure I know what I am going to do next. So to be open and honest and write “I don’t know” it is truly outside of my comfort zone.
I have learned that “not to know” is ok and such a blessing. That we don’t have to know all the answers and the next steps every time. And it is in fact in this journey that we build our faith in God.
There are seasons in our lives when we just need to wait! Waiting in today’s world seems to be such a negative word when we’re told that things happen if we make them happen – and this was the mindset I grew up with!
But in the Bible waiting has a different meaning. To wait on God is not some kind of passive thing. It’s an active engagement with Him! You align your will with His will. You have to let go of emotions, fears and expectations and simply trust that He will guide you where He wants you.
Some of us may jump into things, even spiritual things, maybe because it feels right or we “feel good” about it, but is it really God that is guiding us that way? Have we spent time before Him? Have we waited on Him? Is our heart truly in the right place?
This being said, Steve and I knew we wanted to make a move that would be guided by God and for His Kingdom. But we did not get our answers as soon as we wanted or thought. For the first 6 months of our marriage, we still did not know where we should live and where God was leading us.
Although now, we see that God is leading us to a specific country, we still do not have a “home” or a job, our finances are running dry, etc. We only have God, His Word and the full assurance that He is a Good Father and always with us and that it is through our obedience that He will renew our strength and we will soar (Isaiah 40:31).
Following God surely has a cost! I had to let go of my self-made dreams and concepts of where I should be and how I should live. Let go of the security of having a job, a salary, a retirement or even a savings account. Not that these things are wrong! They are just temporary!
Our true and only security is God! He never changes! He is the same today and forever. His Word is true and He never lies.
I can truly say that this is the happiest I have ever been! All the layers of stress that I accumulated all these years are diminishing day by day and I have never felt so free.
It is hard to not know and to not have control but it is also so freeing. “Let go and let God” has found a new meaning in my heart!
PS: As many of you asked, we are currently in Switzerland with our disciple-makers, where we are learning to serve and experience the blessing that is to be in Body ❤️ We have also had the blessing to go and see God moving in Bulgaria, Romania and Ukraine.